The Beach

What are these people doing?

Hunting for sea glass!

This is what Chris and I did this weekend. Chris insisted that I get out of the house. It was a great idea to go to the beach and hunt for sea glass. This is so meditating for me that while I'm hunting I forget I lost my job. It really does ease the stress that I'm going through.

Here are our treasures for the day

Calm

I'm feeling very calm today. It's a really weird feeling. I don't think I'm comfortable with this feeling, it make me think about the calm before the storm.

Anyways, I frogged the charity hat. It was way too big. So I'm starting over, which is fine because it's mindless knitting and for me right now that is the best kind of knitting.

So this......

became this.

Unemployed

Where have I been. Working for the most stressful company ever. I knew better than to take this job back in December, but I had been working from home and this was the same just a different center. I was let go just days ago. My ego is bruised. Most of all I'm scared to death. My friends say, take the time and rest a little. This would be fine but I'm not even sure that I qualify for unemployment benefits. I'll find out within 10 days, 10 longs days. This is really hard because I've worked from home for the last 5 years. Now I'm still home but not working. I walk around in circles. I have no idea what to do with myself. My boyfriend says I should take the dog on walks. Did that, now what do I do for the rest of the day. It was really weird to be outside in the morning. It was really peaceful. Then I walked in the door and reality sets in again. The anxiety is crazy. I'm also driving my boyfriend crazy, so much so that it's straining our relationship. He is so kind to me but with all the stress I've been really mean to him. I keep having to say I'm sorry. Since I'm having a hard time in the house I'm thinking that I should take my knitting outdoors. This may help keep me sane. Right now I'm knitting a hat for charity. The yarn is from the Purple Lady. I have bags and bags of her yarn. She no longer knits. The only thing is that about 99% of the yarn is acrylic and purple. So I thought knitting for charity would be a good use of the yarn.